I’m learning that it’s okay to have no idea what is around the next corner. Let me explain.
I am a true type-A personality. Sure, I can try and “go with the flow” but honestly? It’s completely against my basic nature. I am, admittedly, a woman who thrives on a plan. To-do lists make my anxiety ebb, and a perfectly organized calendar gives me a thrill. So when I started college, figuring out my future seemed like the next necessary step. I became consumed with this idea of creating a plan for the next phase of my life.
What I didn’t realize for a long time, was that creating a plan for my life without stopping to ask God to direct my steps, was effectively sprinting in the opposite direction of my Father’s open arms. I had become so consumed with putting the pieces of my own life together, that I failed to realize I was only looking at a fraction of the puzzle.
God reveals everything in His own time for our good, and ultimately, for His glory. Because of our limited understanding, we should actually anticipate the curveballs that come our way. God’s wisdom is mighty, and we are never in sole control of our own lives. This truth has really been wrecking my heart lately.
“In their hearts, humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.” Proverbs 16:9
How arrogant are we, as mere human beings, to think that we can ever truly order our steps? We can definitely try. But the Lord is the only author of our story. When things come out of the blue, we should accept the truth that God is all-knowing and infinitely merciful. I give up on trying to plan the next step for my life. I’m learning to trust that the Lord will make my way clear, in His timing, not mine.
Trusting that the Lord has everything under perfect control allows us to rest in His presence, and enjoy our present circumstances. I’m so thankful to worship a God who wants the best for us. It’s scary to be unsure about the next phase of our lives, but God already has the next plot written in our story.