It’s December, which means advent season starts today. And I’m kind of giddy this season because Jesus keeps pricking my heart to just sit in this space with him. There’s twenty-five beautiful days carved out before Christmas, and it never seems like enough time. But it is. It is enough time to sit and savor.
To dine with friends and remember who you are.
To sit under the tree and watch your favorite 90’s Christmas movies just because.
To get after grateful and spend time in the Word trying to grapple with the miraculous miracle that was Jesus’ birth.
To buy meaningful gifts for others, while appreciating the Gift you have been given.
I’m reading Ann Voskamp’s The Greatest Gift advent book right now and it’s like a healing balm for my soul. She gets it. She puts into words all of the feelings that are a tornado inside my head and heart. And the sad truth is, this book has been sitting on my shelf for THREE years because I’ve always been “too busy” to open it. I hate that I’ve always put Jesus last during the season that’s all about Him. It’s embarrassing. But that doesn’t meant that the cycle has to continue.
There IS enough time. We just lie to ourselves and breathe the lie that there’s never enough. The enemy really wants us to be busy. Too busy to think about Jesus when we’re trying to finish shopping and checking off lists. But I’m learning that this season really isn’t about busy.It’s about space and embracing a grace-gift unlike any other. So I think instead of running around trying to do all the things this season, I’m going to try to sit more. Give life to others by spending time with Life Himself.
And it’s hard to carve out time. But the truth is, it’s harder to live a life without pursuing Jesus with my whole heart. It’s lonely and disappointing and freedom is so much better than sitting in my mess without turning to Jesus.
Ann Voskamp pricked my heart this morning when she said “And the heart that makes time and space for Him to come will be a glorious place. A place of sheer, radiant defiance in the face of a world careening mad and stressed.”
I want that heart. I’m going to chase after it.